How can I lost you

18 October, 2009

Today, he left me, fly back to S... for work, for his job, also for his "potential" new girlfriend...

I was so sad. This kind of sadness is only happened for 1 time, when my dear Uncle died - It was more than 10 years ago...

I cannot understand why the 2 people who loved each other will be broken, because of a "potential" girlfriend....

I asked God, I asked myself...

Finally I decided let him go... I tried to forget him, but, all the things around me are related to him... even the music in my computer... also transfered by him....

I tried to forget him for 1 week ago, when he said he want to end our relationship... But failed...

I don't know what to say... I went to church this morning, after I sent him left London... I ask God what shall I do to forget him.... and I required an confession... The father in Church told me God never punish people. And God will forgive our any mistakes or sins, as long as we turn to the God.....

I think I will be strong.... but I cried again.... Good girl should not need tears... but.. these days, my tears are so so so much... cannot stop....

God... give me power...................