How to recover

Hi Charles,

These days I felt very anxious... because of my study, because of you.

Every morning, I wake up from the sad dreams related with you. I hope my life is still continue, but I know my life without you is so horrible. Yes, it is right that it is not the end of the world, but my life is no happy anymore.

As you said, maybe we can let our life become back to 10 months ago... but no body can set our life as before, like set up the computer. Some things always lived in the heart.

I don't know what I can do so that you will allow me to entered your life again. I can forget other body, and I did forget my previous boyfriends easily, maybe it is because I didn't love them so much. I don't know where and why I love you. Love is just a feeling, cannot find reason. But I know I love you. This is a strong feeling that cannot live without you. You suggest me to make a deep breath when I felt upset, but maybe you don't know that even I make a breath, I felt painful from throat to lung...

You told me you haven't recovered.... since we both cannot recovered, why we don't come back to get together???

Life is short... I believe that I waited 26 years to met you.... I don't know how many other "26 years" in my life to find a guy as you...

Happiness is short.. I thought the time I spent with you are the most happiest time in my life. It is really heard to find such happiness... Since I found it, why should I give up it?

It is not easy to met a guy you love so much (or have feeling so strong), and once I found him, why shall I give up so easily??

I don't know your feeling about me, and I don't know what kind of life you want.... but I know what kind of life I want... I want you, that is all. Because I experienced this tough life without you... very very tough for me....

I will have holiday soon... and if everything is ok, I will got my Schengen Visa.... All I want is live with you in Tarragona for some days.... I don't take care if you treat me as your friends, or sister, or other things... I don't take care of your feeling on me... I just want to stay with you...

People can lost all the pride, in front of the LOVE. and now, me too...